My dear friends, great minds think alike and you guys (M:e, Paul and Lessa) have unequivocally convinced me to stay where I am for the time being. I do feel a bit safer here, kind of like being in a sheltered cove within a large and powerful lake.
I'm VERY glad that I've dipped my toes into the water once again and have found a new place for myself but I'm not yet ready to feel the full blast of bloggerdom.
Besides, this really is still just my place to vent and talk about me, not as much about sex and spanking (cause there is none of that in sight anytime soon). Not that that is a bad thing, just that it does single me out as a little different from the rest.
Not so much because I'm not being spanked or having sex, but because in this place and this time right now, I honestly don't care enough to try to change anything. Family health takes precedence over everything else right now and although it has been hard to face, that has forced me to accept life as it is now (and to be happy and content within those parameters).
Anyway, I do feel safe here and I also know that here I CAN vent about anything or everything (yet somehow having that freedom makes it less of a necessity to actually do that). I know I am surrounded by my very best friends who only seek to share my life with me and offer their support. This place doesn't have a persona of its own besides being my little piece of cyberspace, no hidden agenda, no great expectations except to be the truth, my truth, shared with you.
Thank you for giving me this gift, on this day... you each make every day a miracle!
This will be the ultimate quickie... and something of an apology for not being around for about two weeks. I haven't read a single blog in more than a week (possibly two) and in all honesty, I probably won't for another week or two. Time is shorter than it's ever been around here, at least time to spend reading or emailing or doing anything else computer-related. But I'm definitely NOT complaining!
Life is good overall. And even in the not-so-good stuff (mostly health-related), I'm looking at it with a different attitude than I've leaned toward in the past. It WILL all work out and we will all be fine, even be closer because of the past year's "stuff."
But back to what I'm doing that keeps me away from here... it's all related to the kid, of course. In one respect or another. Baseball games start this weekend with a double-header. He's in the Easter pageant at our church, singing in the choir, learning two really tough songs, taking standardized tests the next two weeks and we are also involved in the set building for the Easter pageant.
So our days are long and we spend most of our time away from home, or so it seems, but we're basically having fun and filled with excitement and lots of new beginnings.
Anyway, I'm not ignoring anyone out here on purpose... and as soon as I have time to sit down for more than five minutes, I'll be back. I'm even thinking of going back on my idea of this blog and posting again at my main old blog.
So here's the question of the day, for whenever you have time to answer:
If I were to start posting again at my old place, do you think that's a good idea, bad idea or really could care less either way? And why?
Our little guy sang his heart out last night for the biggest crowd he's ever performed for! He also had to do hand gestures to the music (POLITE gestures!)... it was a church function, LOL. Anyway, he was awesome and received tons of praise afterwards from his choir teacher about how "adult" he is. No surprise to us but we love hearing it anyway!
He finished fourth grade a couple months ago and has started fifth grade... taken his writing tests for the year and will be doing more standardized tests next month. He's keeping us both very busy!
He's also making quite the impression on the baseball field this year. He's playing competitively for his fourth year but this is his first with this team. He's also facing (and doing) live pitching this year for the first time, plus playing first base the rest of the time. He took a big hit in practice the other night but kept right on going. He's a real trooper!
I was going to post something more exciting, but some sort of flu has hit our family this weekend and it's affecting me the most... nothing severe, just dizzy, queasy, sniffly and yucky feeling. But definitely NOT up to writing anything erotic. And I AM feeling particularly proud of the little guy these days, so I figured I'd share the joy, plus give you a bit of insight into what's been happening with him.
Besides, my hopes and thoughts are with Mthc and David this weekend, wishing them well and hoping they are doing OK!
Not just for spanking, though that thoughts occurs more and more often lately (it's been ridiculously long; long enough to actually scare me silly at the concept).
But also hands of love, collective hands joining together toward a common goal.
Today and throughout the next week or so, my thoughts turn to all my friends joining hands collectively, symbolically, in hopes of channeling all the available positive, healing energy in the universe into Mthc and David's reality. I KNOW they are both gonna be fine. I feel it in every pore of my being. But until they are both convinced, well, our job simply isn't done!
Fanning the flames seemed the perfect transition and description of life as it's been and as it now stands for me. Yes, I've been an active participant in this Blogger community before, sometimes as a reader, sometimes as a commenter, sometimes as a lurker. And yes, I've changed my "identity," not because I feel any less "connected" to my old one, but at least for now, the only way I feel remotely comfortable stepping back out into the public eye is to remain anonymous to some folks. So this will have to do for now.
I'm making no promises, no guarantees as to how often I'll post or whether or not I'll write anything worth reading or commenting on. Though the posting thing is hardly new to me, everything is new in some respects... my life has changed unalterably in the past few months. Not all bad, certainly not all good, and hopefully it will continue to change for the better. But like it or not, it is in flux, so this place will undoubtedly see tremendous changes, too.
If anything I've said strikes your fancy or makes you wonder, feel free to stick around for as long a time as you like. I'm very happy to see you!
By the way, though I've been deliberating about returning to blogging for quite some time, my final decision was made quite quickly, purely out of convenience. That being said, I WILL be making lots of changes to the appearance of the blog, too, so don't worry, it won't look this way for too long. But I LOVE the overall look and feel of this template, so at least it is a good starting point.
Happily married with children and a wild imagination (far wilder than my reality). I've blogged before... so you might (or might not) know who I am. Drop me an email anytime!
